I love you Gladys Jolina Broadus forever and always, My grandfather passed away on 30 december 2018. It was very hard to see both grandparents pass but even more so now because i have a better understanding of what was happening. I agree with him. You cared for us with everything you had. I love you so much grandma, that says it all., Thank you for the love you showered on us while alive. The police said they were sending an officer to come and talk to me but I didnt make any connection. I guess its 2020 way of going out with a bang I feel.. guilty.. sadness anger confused at some times, my grandma was the only person I could to talk to about stuff I couldnt talk to anyone else with.. if I needed to escape the conflict at my home her door was always open I wish I wouldve got to spend more time with her. It was like a ticking time bomb. And in these almost eighteen years of living that hasnt changed either. Alicia, thank you. He was totally healthyhe even went to doctor yesterday but he said that theres nothing to worry aboutBut today early in the morning he had a heart attack. He was my whole world and I feel like no one understands. Gemma February 22, 2018 at 9:42 am Reply. I am so sad to hear about all your loses..Ive heard that sharing you pain makes u feel a bit betterI dont evn know hw Im writing todaybut I lost my granny yesterday due to covidshe got covid on the 19th of may..and had to be hospitalized on 24th when her oxygen level was dropping well below 88..She recovered well enough..the day before yesterday,the doctr told me that they would release her from hospital in a day or 2..everything was going fineeven my grandad is still in the same hospital..they were both admitted togetherand even he is critically ill..after recovering from covid,she faced 2 severe heart attacks all of a sudden which made it impossible fr her to return back to usI still remeber how much she loved me..those hugs of love,Ill never ever get back again..Im 26 and Im a trainee pilot in india..and those memories still haunt me where we both spent such lovely times togetherI was her favourite grandchildsince Im the eldest in the familyshe was always poor but never hesitated to do anything she could for meshe loved me like I meant so.ething really special and inseperable to herI too loved her pretty much more than what I can explain right nowevery moment of joy in my life was associated with my grannyfrom small birthday visits to going out on vacations.she was always with meI dont know what happened and how guilty I am to lose this gem from my lifemy granny s house looks like a deserted island right now..I cannot go there because I feel sad not seeing her there nowher smile still is visible in my heart and it will always beshe was just 67 years old.I cant exaplain my sorrow I know this will not relieve me of the painI know I will suffer throughoutand I know..Ill all keep missing her..and her sweet smile that I will never ever be able to witness againI dont know what will happen to my grandpa evenI am the unluckiest grandchild one can ever have.. Jasmine Patterson January 10, 2021 at 10:42 am Reply. julie a bowlin May 20, 2019 at 12:45 pm Reply, this happend to me my grandmother woke me up and told me my grandfather was gone i did not react i didnt cry until about a month later i was 13 my 14th birthday was less than a month away, Sanchari Mandal March 28, 2019 at 5:36 pm Reply, I lost my grandfather in 2018 november. The grief will always be there but some how time helps you cope. It feels like grief is love with nowhere to go. I now feel a sense of guilt and unfortunate luck that we could not save her and this is something that she did not deserve. Urgent Leave Message due to Death of grandmother. On September 2nd, we recieved a call at 3 in the morning saying that my grandma had to be intubated she couldnt breathe because she had asthmatic bronchitis. It feels a reminder of what Ive had, and what I love and could never forget. She wanted for nothing and in turn I dont feel she was as valued as she should of been. I feel as if I have lost a part of me. We dont even know why or how. Hi. i lost my grandfather this September due to covid19. - Healthboards - Support - Death & Dying: I am torn to shreds. He was so loving and enthusiastic. John November 10, 2020 at 12:16 pm Reply. What youve said is so insightful Id rather have this pain Im feeling now and all the things he and I did together than to have never had a close relationship with him. Thank you for sharing your perspective! He no longer spoke, he had all these tubes going down his neck. I was with her every weekend . The room wailed with cries. My great gran had a lot of things wrong with her at this point she had sepsis , dementia and really all together she was 98 at the end off the day. 11. I lost my Nana 2 days ago now (paternal). Im trying 2 stay strong 4 my grandmother uncle and father but I myself feel drunk and lost. And Im mad. My nana who pretty much raised me passed away this january. Couldnt cry at the day of the viewing and funeral. I just returned from the wake and it truly opened some old wounds. He was only 69, and his birthday is in February. two days before his scheduled surgery day, he had another minor attack and so they decided to do the surgery then rather than wait. I used to be very close to her. I dont know if I had made it this far without her. My grandma ran businesses in her youth and married young. The next day my family heard that she had cancer. He was a great person. Im currently experiencing grief all over again as their house has just been sold to another family. he started to vomit, or atleast try to. But does my grandma know I still love her.? camilla castaneda April 12, 2020 at 4:02 am Reply. I will not be present at work today. Your grandfather sounds like an incredible person who will be missed greatly. I was also the one to plan the entire funeral myself and do all the running around . All I have are my memories and your picture in a frame. Over many decades. He was already very old too, so I know it would have happened eventually. It breaks my heart that ill never see/hear/hug him again but i know ill always cherish the memories we had together. You are not responsible in any way for the decision made about the prune juice. But at the time when everyone was emotional I realized there wasnt anyone there anymore to comfort people, do the hard things that no one wanted, and kept everyone happy, so I just took the role he left in a way and would just do everything for everyone, be there for everyone and listen, comfort them al , while maintaining a smile on my face just for them. Most importantly he loved his family and he would be so happy when all of us would come around for the holidays. i love you papa jose and im gonna miss you so much ?? She has been the one person that has loved me unconditionally my entire life through very tough times. Perhaps you are at peace at the death of your grandma because you know that she no longer suffers and is in a better place. I told my grandmother I forgave her for everything and dedicated my life to take care of her for the rest of her life when the drs told us there was nothing else they could do. please help me. He was so sick and I am grateful he isnt suffering anymore. Daniel Chen January 11, 2021 at 8:41 am Reply. It just tears me up to know some day, somebody will be living in her house. My prayers are with you. I was not very close to him but I wish I was. Prayer and fond memories of your grandmother is all that we have to remember. Still cant believe it wow sorry I wrote an actual novel and I dont expect people to make it this far but she was one of a kind. My grandmother died on the last day of 2021. He was it, he was my everything. And when we said goodbye to one grandmother, we said goodbye to all of them. Sherman Alexie, #24. On the morning of the 17th my mother calls Hospice and they tell her that they never received a request for a nurse. I love you so so much grandad and I miss you so much. I miss her hugs and good mornings and good byes. First his oxygen saturation dropped, then he was placed on a ventilator, then kidney failure. I pray you all have dreams of them visiting. That was the last time she opened her eyes. Between her and my grandpa she was the one that made things the most special. I will always love you. Driving around Europe, Canada in RVs. Rest in peace., I know she is with me in my heart, but I want her by my side. My family and I have already received signs from him, one being on his birthday. This whole experience, from me driving back forth from Nola to Lake Charles every 2-3 weeks up until the day she died, has been a tumbleweed of feelings that I am still trying to work through. Rosalie March 27, 2020 at 6:23 pm Reply. Yes he did live a good life and did whatever he wanted to do. I do have so many amazing memories of her and think of random stuff all the time but I think seeing her body was definitely a bad decision. Its hard not to think about my grand father cause he was my every day now i dont feel like looking forward to tomorrow because he wont be here.. The most helpless ive ever seen my grandma was in the hospital and she could barely pick up a glass of water on her own. Death is the road. I miss My Papa and I am waiting to visit my papa in my dreams I cant wait.. Even though he died when I was just 5 I remember him like yesterday and I think the reason is because I loved him so much and his death traumatized me when I was at an age where grandpa was your hero and could never die so I think my brain subconsciously held on to memories of him that a regular 5 year old usually wouldnt remember. I just feel like I didnt spend enough time with him. Nini January 23, 2019 at 12:12 pm Reply. Her kidney and liver are failing , she doesnt have long to live and she signed a dnr . The holidays are always the hardest, I just want to talk to her, and hug her, and just hear her voice again. Tanner Todora March 2, 2018 at 4:15 am Reply. Saraa, I am so sorry for your loss and for the pain you are being made to endure. My grandpa died 3-13-20 and I am still having a very hard time with his sudden passing. My grandma died this week, right before my birthday this month.She was 84, but very healthy for her age, so it feels so sudden.She was one of my only friends, and the word was doesnt even feel right. I just wish he was still here. When we went to go visit him in his room after he passed, my grandma was just hovered over him bawling her eyes out. Bebe November 29, 2019 at 11:08 pm Reply. I still remember the day I saw him at hospital smiling and we also took a picture. He says he is ok with this and doesnt want too see her suffer anymore. I miss her so much. My Pop passed away Feburary 16th at home in hospice care. Im hurting and even if I live to see the age 78 ill always yearn for my grandmother. You advocated for your grandfather, considered every concern, and was reassured by a medical professional throughout the process. I hope this website brings you some comfort. All the best to you. It really sucks since Ive never dealt with feelings like these before, but I believe I will feel better once I can finally go home and grieve with my family. she reassured me that it was fine and he might as well try if thats what works for him. You will get there. Now, I feel that no one seems to think Im allowed to grieve my grandfather because it probably doesnt appear that I even had a close relationship with him. Im still trying to cope with it but its been very hard. I dedicated my Masters thesis to her and went on to earn an AB Doctorate because of her. IsabelleS December 28, 2020 at 2:10 pm Reply. Was shot by my aunts High school boyfriend. My grandma was 77 at the time and she was so devasted. i wish everyone the best, times like this remind me to let others know how much we care and love them. I have even spent the last two years living with them. Share the inspiration with friends & family! I have been struggling really hard because I dont know how to live or move on. Calgirl August 27, 2019 at 2:04 am Reply. #27. Just when I think that I got over it, thered be something she left at my house in the bookcase or on the table, and it would kick start my grief again. I am crying as I type. We would talk about my softball season or my new school or anything in between. I miss her so very much. He was such a great man and Im so angry that hes gone. Last time was like I cried when I saw, and he told me in dream: dont cry nepwehi know..i miss you too. He was having breathing problems and was on oxygen but he was a tough and stuborn man he was 74 and still looked after family he was the pillar who held family as a fmily. Ive never had anyone close to us pass away before. We talked several times a day about everything and anything. Im looking after Nan for you Pop, Anyka Ivey March 26, 2018 at 5:42 pm Reply, Hi my grandad passed away yesterday. The pain changes with time, it doesnt hurt as much, and Im happy and proud to tell stories about them, especially to my kids. He is very sad that he lost his partner of 61 years and says it was not enough time. The amount of love that Mama had for her and everyone around her was always so overwhelming in the best way. He told me goodbye and he loved me two days before he left. I lost my grandmother 2 days before Christmas of 2019 and Im still grieving, she fell into two categories for me personally, she was more my mom and the fabric that held our family together! She had committed suicide. My family is torn. My great-grandfather and I had not a close relationship but he was my sole remaining grandpa having his son (my maternal grandfather) died before my birth and my paternal grandfather having deceased on my birthday in 2012 and I love going to visit him. Im so sorry for your loss. I lived down the road from her and saw her everyday, I have always visited her. Although your grief will ultimately be unique to you and to the relationship you had with your grandparent, in the following article we will discuss a few of challenges common to grieving the death of a grandparent. All the best. When released, he came back to our house because his wife (Grandma) was in the hospital with sepsis. I hear that you feel guilty for not being the granddaughter they wanted. Guilt is such a normal and valid part of the grieving process. I lost my grandpa 3 days ago due to covid and i couldnt even say goodbye, i didnt even know he was sick, im so mad i feel so guilty for not keeping enough contact with him as i would have liked, i didnt even got to tell him that i want to be a doctor like him, this doesnt even feel real and i dont know how to deal with this. You guys helped raise me and I love you even more for that. If tears could build a stairway and memories a lane, Id walk right up to heaven and bring you home again. Unknown, #6. Im 18 too and she was my absolute world and we were so similar in every way possible, she was only 75, she deserved to live a lot longer. That was 20 years ago and I still think and talk about him all the time. She always use to ask if I had my breakfast, lunch or dinner. 2. She had the safest place to hide. They had 10 more years of traveling planned. And the next day he bid me goodbye, hugged me, i kept on saying that you have to be strong,dont have any negative thought in your mind and that you have to come back and he said okay. My grandmother was definitely a second mother to me and my siblings. He was 91 years old, and he fought with everything in him to stay here but his body was just done fighting. Heightened emotion, grieving styles, misunderstandings,even fightingcan make it hard for people to (1) support one another and (2) attend to their own needs. I am sad that we have lost such a pure soul like him. Love leaves a memory no one can steal. Richard Puz, The Carolinian, Grandma left many wonderful memories that will never fade from my heart. The doctors said we are taking her off all medicines to keep her alive , but she will not feel the pain still . She did. He told me to bring him a hair band the next time I visited him. Personally, whats triggering me is that I was the last one to get out of the hospital room and I could see his pain and how he was suffering. I keep hearing his voice in my head. I always knew she couldnt be by my side forever, but even in her absence, I feel her all around me, everything I do, I do to honor her legacy. Even though I wasnt extremely close to him, his death brought me great grief. I know hes watching over me and my family, especially my grandma. We have always lived together from where. We will take care of grandpa dont worry. And so, laughing and crying, we said goodbye to my grandmother. He died on the day I decided to visit him at the hospital. I have lost my grandmother on 11th October and i miss her so much. When we got the call early that morning that her heart rate through strong was starting to decline, we hurried to spend her last hours with her. Theyre still gone. It doesnt magically go away, even when you stop officially mourning. Carrie Jones, #30. Then one night I called him we talked about life in general and he said he loved the way I styled my hair. I lost a very special man last July, this coming Christmas will be the second without my grandad. I called her on Sunday and told her to pay attention, she told me she would. MHTomcik December 11, 2020 at 11:47 pm Reply. I denied her death for two years but then , it hit me like a ton of bricks. Sometimes people are grieving and they dont know how to express it, so they get angry and blame others. and once he was placed in his bed he died at 12:55AM. Wednesday I received the call I never wanted. The entire drive up there, I had the mindset that he was going to pull through. I love my mother, but its almost like my mom is more of a big sister. They also often speak to me like I should not be so upset. Seeing the gift you left for me, brought me to tears. I found pictures of my Opa. The days leading up to his death were the worst days of my life. No matter what, the precious moments we spent together still linger in my memory. I want to tell a little of his story. My grandma died this morning. I sat with my Grandpa and told him of my plan to bring him back to a different hospital. I miss her terribly. That being said, it sounds like you are doing a wonderful job of supporting your mother during this time. Sadly it feels like theres never enough time. No one has ever loved me so dearly as she has. Ive only just started secondary school and its really hard for me because Grandad was so healthy and still working even though he didnt need to anymore. I am the first great grandson on my mothers side and Im very distant with them now Im 22 and I cry at the drop of a dime with them in thought. I miss him terribly each day. I want you to know that what you are going throughwanting your grandfather back one last timeis completely normal. I am going to miss everything about you, Grandma. Finally I finished my study got a job This year I was planning to go back. However this sadness is so different. She was a good age and I couldnt have expected her to keep going forever. As I was laying there thinking I could hear her voice come through so clearly and say I love you Reese. My grandmother was 82 years old and the most strong , fiercely independent and educated woman. 12 years later Im still in grief as I just cant cope with the loss of the closest person Ive ever had. And now theyre gone. This is something people love to say about grandparents, I guess because it's often true. Maryam Khoujja November 16, 2020 at 10:14 pm Reply. My grandpa passed away yesterday morning. Although grief is always individual, age can influence a person's understanding and response to loss. On Wed afternoon, the doctors informed us that her cancer had come back, but it was stage 4 and treatable, so they were bringing her to the hospice; not expecting her to make it through the night, but she did. You miss the deceased and remember her with memories which are eternal. Kind of like if youve ever had to walk through fresh snow or blow up a new balloon. I miss that comfort and her wonderful self every single day., You may be gone, but my memories of your love and comfort will never fade away. Example 5. It feels like i have a hole in my heart and i dont know what to do. I thought about you yesterday, and the days before that too. She recently celebrated her 95th birthday with thirty grandchildren and five great grandchildren in attendance. You have filled my life with so much love and precious memories. Grandmas hold our tiny hands for just a little while but our hearts forever., I keep myself busy with things I do. I only cry a bit because she was surrounded by loved ones. Its ok, Im crying with you, youre not alone. She was my rock, she was my soldier; I hope to become more and more like her as I grow older., No one could listen like my grandma. You are a special part of our family too. Thank you! It has been very hard for me but I am trying to think positive. Im in so much denial right now that I keep wishing this was some sick dream and none of this is real. It sounds like you want to be there for your mother, but please know that you must be there for yourself first. Many grandparents could only hope to have such a wonderful grandchild in their lives. they told him theyd have to force it with a water and a tube. yesterday night my grandpa passed away. The oxygen in the hospital was to help him fight for his life until he could die at home like he wanted. Even though the first one wasnt my paternal grandmother I still miss her so much. after, they took him for his second walk that week and he was trying so hard. I didnt have a chance to say goodbye to her but I know that she is watching over us. I just lost my grandpa yesterday at around 5pm The past week he has been in the hospital after undergoing dialysis. Depending on the circumstances, you may feel as though you have to prioritize the needs ofothers in your family beforeattending to your own grief and wellbeing.